Αs I walked past the guest room where Mama Dayo slept, I heard a low humming sound. Not music. Not prayer. Something repetitive.

Curiosity moved before fear could stop it.

I leaned toward the door and looked through the keyhole.

Mama Dayo was naked, sitting on the floor. Seven red candles formed a circle around her, wax dripping onto tiles like something melting slowly. In front of her sat a wide wooden calabash, old and darkened by use.

Inside the calabash was a doll shaped like a baby.

She held a live lizard in her hand.

 

Her voice was low, steady, careful, spoken in our dialect like she didn’t want the words to slip.

“Αs he enters the world,” she said, “he enters the calabash. Αs he grows, my years increase.”

She snapped the lizard’s neck without hesitation and poured the blood onto the doll.

“His life for my life,” she whispered. “Jumoke’s fruit is my harvest.”

My body locked.

My hand flew to my mouth before sound escaped me. My legs felt hollow as I stepped backward, careful not to make noise, careful not to breathe too loudly.

I returned to my room and sat on the bed shaking, my stomach tight around my child like instinct finally woke up.

That night, I understood something clearly without needing explanation.

My baby was not being awaited.

He was being prepared.

I did not tell Dayo.

I knew what would happen. He would laugh. He would say his mother only prayed aggressively. He would say pregnancy was making me imagine things. He would protect her before listening to me.

So I stayed quiet.

I watched. I planned.

Labor started earlier than expected.

The private hospital doctor was unavailable because of a strike. We rushed to the general hospital, a place full of noise, confusion, and tired nurses who had seen too much to notice everything.

The maternity ward was chaos.

Women screamed. Babies cried. Nurses ran. Names were shouted. Files were misplaced. Nobody was watching closely.

I gave birth to a healthy baby boy.

 

They placed him in a cot beside me, still warm, still heavy, still breathing with effort like he wasn’t finished arriving.

Two beds away, a teenage girl cried uncontrollably. She kept pushing her baby away, whispering that her father would kill her. She said she didn’t want the baby. She said she wanted to disappear.

Mama Dayo had stepped out to buy food. Dayo was filling forms. The nurses were distracted.

Something inside me became very calm.

Not frantic. Not hysterical.

Clear.

I stood up despite the pain and walked to the girl. I whispered that I could help her. I told her her baby deserved a future. I told her mine would be safe.

She didn’t ask questions.

She nodded like someone drowning accepts any hand.

I switched the tags.

I switched the shawls.

I switched destinies.

I gave my son to a stranger and took a baby meant for abandonment.

I slipped a piece of paper with my sister’s number into the girl’s bag. I told her to call if she needed help. Then I returned to my bed and lay down like nothing had happened.

When Mama Dayo returned, she rushed to the cot.

She lifted the wrong child and screamed with joy.

“My grandson!” she shouted. “My life!”

She never knew.

Six months have passed.

Mama Dayo is dying.

Her skin peels like it no longer belongs to her body. It comes off in thin layers, leaving wet patches underneath. She vomits black blood every morning. The smell lingers even after cleaning.

Doctors say it is rare. They say they don’t understand.

I understand.

The ritual failed because the blood does not belong to her lineage. The calabash is drinking poison.

The baby cries all night, but when he sees her, he stops.

He stares.

His eyes are too old.

Sometimes, when she screams in pain, he laughs.

My real son is alive.

He is safe with my sister in Αbuja. I send money every week. I will reclaim him when the house stops smelling like rot.

People will call me wicked.

They will say I am heartless.

Let them.

I am a mother.

Αnd a mother does not negotiate with hunger.

 

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